In late Febuary my wife and I found out she was pregnant with our first child. Mannn the rush of emotions that come shooting at you in that moment is honestly alot to take in.
From selfish thoughts like there goes my plans I had this year. To ok, what do we need to do to prepare for this? I started thinking about shit I needed to get together, to give my child the best life I can give em. Start saving for college, so hopefully they won't have to worry about student loans. Start saving for family vacations, so I can provide memories and experiences. All the geek stuff I can't wait to introduce and share (ninja turtles, pro wrestling, movies, and superheroes among others).
I thought about my own insecurities I need to work on (yes you can still have them in your thirties). So that I don't subconsciously pass them on to my child.
I've been reading as much as I could about pregnancy, particularly in the early months. How often do babies sleep in the womb? The growth process in the womb, things dad's can do to support their significant other. I went to the first doctors visit in early March nervous as hell and overwhelmed but excited...then covid hit.
Since then I haven't been able to go to the appointments. I missed hearing the baby's heartbeat and sonograms, thanks to the power of technology I've heard recordings of the heartbeat and could facetime during sonogram visits. However, it's not the same and I'm annoyed I'm missing the in person part of the process.
The months have passed and my wife belly grows. I rub her stomach every night and "talk" to my daughter. A few things have spring upon me,first is how the parental instinct to be a protector automatically kicks in. Although she is not here yet, my job is to make sure my wife is safe and doing good and in turn my daughter. The second is how you could love someone you haven't met yet so much. I can only imagine the feeling once she is born.
If you haven't realized by now I'm gonna be a "sucker" for my child....and I'm A-ok with that. October also can't come soon enough and I'm patiently but impatiently waiting for the due date to come.
